dis-couraged

I don't know what to do.

I just spent an hour tailoring my resume and writing a new cover letter for a position that was pretty much my dream job. I felt good about my application, I was excited that maybe something good was going to come from all these weeks of waiting. I sent the email and got started on the homework I was supposed to be working on.

On a whim, I checked the website again, just minutes after sending my application. The job is no longer posted.

I know that the employment situation is awful for everyone right now. I know talented, awesome people who can't find a job. I happen to be one of them. But I am so frustrated. How many times am I going to go through the nervousness, the anticipation, the interviews, the waiting, only to find out that I'm still unemployed?

I had this moment last night where I felt like life was looking up. I'm trying so hard to hang on to that feeling and the belief that something will work out. I just don't know how long I can stay this course.